Got off the phone after a very long phone conversation--- ED. I wish it was easier for people to get involved without having to think of the consequences of their actions...
I did not expect that he'd call again... after all, I told him that we should stop communicating. But of course, we are still friends so what's the point in not talking. He said he missed me terribly. I do too. Especially because he listens to me and makes me talk my feelings out without judging me or telling me that I should stop... He never tells me to stop talking when I have so much to say... Hmmm... Now I am thinking of his proposal again...
With these games that "you know who" is playing, I might as well play his game too. But--- I am not like him. I do not play with people's emotions. Especially because I know what's going on between each of our lives. Well, like the way we used to, he poured everything out... My oh my... we are not using SUN... it must be expensive... When we ended the call, I felt like crying. Ed do not deserve whatever he is going through now.. He deserves to be happy.... I wish I could teach him how to be happy. Because quite frankly, I am happy now. I am at peace. I can say to all of my detractors that their game is useless and pointless because it just doesn't hurt me anymore...I know the truth... And all they are doing now just makes me laugh... I wish I could show you guys the pictures they have uploaded on friendster to prove my point... But I am not like them.. I will not stoop so low as to level myself with them. My life is full. I am too busy for such nonsense... But never too busy to talk to a friend in need... Dear God, please take away his pain... Amen...
I did not expect that he'd call again... after all, I told him that we should stop communicating. But of course, we are still friends so what's the point in not talking. He said he missed me terribly. I do too. Especially because he listens to me and makes me talk my feelings out without judging me or telling me that I should stop... He never tells me to stop talking when I have so much to say... Hmmm... Now I am thinking of his proposal again...
With these games that "you know who" is playing, I might as well play his game too. But--- I am not like him. I do not play with people's emotions. Especially because I know what's going on between each of our lives. Well, like the way we used to, he poured everything out... My oh my... we are not using SUN... it must be expensive... When we ended the call, I felt like crying. Ed do not deserve whatever he is going through now.. He deserves to be happy.... I wish I could teach him how to be happy. Because quite frankly, I am happy now. I am at peace. I can say to all of my detractors that their game is useless and pointless because it just doesn't hurt me anymore...I know the truth... And all they are doing now just makes me laugh... I wish I could show you guys the pictures they have uploaded on friendster to prove my point... But I am not like them.. I will not stoop so low as to level myself with them. My life is full. I am too busy for such nonsense... But never too busy to talk to a friend in need... Dear God, please take away his pain... Amen...
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